I shot a banana because I was drunk

20060524
11:35 PM

I look at our picture and I thought I see a stranger looking back at me.

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20060516
11:20 PM

I feel lousy.

The general Singaporean male population just makes me feel that way. Most of the guys are shallow. They are so shallow that I believe I can dip my little toe and reach the depth of them. I have come to this conclusion after talking to my colleague, Mas, today. Sad, but nearly true. Sigh. Why is the whole world advocating that skinny is beautiful? Not that being skinny is not beautiful but true beauty IS NOT SKIN DEEP. Guys here tend to stereotype the idea of beautiful to be skinny, long straight hair and fair skinned. It'd be great if the girl is a little weak, helpless looking creature who seems less confident than he is. Hell, what about the rest of the us? What happens to confident being sexy? Now it has become intimidating. What has become to being unique? Tell me man, tell me.

I am sickened by all these. All these. Obviously, not only am I born into the wrong era, it seems like I am born into the wrong country as well.

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20060502
12:13 PM

After months of fighting the flu virus and boasting to Pyisoe that I am was stronger than him (as he fell sick), I have finally crumbled under it's yoke of domination. In fact, most of us over at work, from the two outlets, are officially sick. Yani is the last woman standing. That's because she just came back from vacation on sunday hence she is spared.

Sigh.

It sucks to work when you have a runny nose. It's worse when you have to work with a runny nose, sore throat and a splitting headache that never goes away. I am afraid that I am getting increasingly hooked and dependant on paracetamol. They just make you feel at ease and relaxed. Woo.

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20060426
8:21 AM

I am sick of it.

WHY CAN'T I COMPLETELY GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND!?

I hate it. You make me hate myself.

Go away and leave me alone. Please.

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20060421
9:30 PM

"I love you Christina. I love you now, I love you forever. There's no goodbyes. Only love." - The Perfect Storm.

Don't we just loveeeee movies that make us cry?!

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Just started work today at at this swanky swim wear shop in town. It was so fun! :D I never enjoyed work so much before. Ha. Was a great experience. Have wonderful colleagues. Surrounded by my favourite type of clothes - bikinis and casual apparels. YAY! :D That just spells more shopping. I can already see where my pay is going to when I get it next month.

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20060419
10:06 PM

Finally finished the book "Just another Kid" by Torey Hayden. It's a wonderful book telling of a teacher's compassion, patience and love towards six mentally handicapped, abused, traumatised kids. And the best thing about this book is that it's REAL. All the events happened before. Woah. If you think teaching in a normal school is tough, think twice. Go read this book. It's worth it. (:

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Loneliness does all kinds of things to make people go crazy. Loneliness is sad, painful, even scary.

How'd I know there are so many lonely people in the world?

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20060417
10:19 AM

I am a sentimental sucker.

Was packing my room when I chanced upon this box filled with momentos from the past - My Pri.6 autograph book, Sec sch year book, SA's year book, countless notes, love letters, notebooks, those old school erasers blah blah blah.

I looked back and wondered, where are all the "FRieNdS fOreVeR" and "sTaY iN tOucH"? Pardon for the way I typed, but that was how I used to write. Ha.

I remember my Pri.5 crush - JianTing. It's unbelieveable that I would have a crush on the class' maths genius. He is a real genius in the Singaporean sense, mind you. He used to solve difficult maths problems that would require 3841794372 steps in just 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 steps. Ok, make that 1, 2, 3. He went for the GEP programme for smarties after PSLE. Gee. He used to sit behind me with Alice, and I was sitting with Arika. (: We would pass notes and all. Yes, tho he was a little temperamental at that time, he'd made really funny jokes if he was in a good mood. People who didn't know him then, would perceive him as "cold" "nerdy". But if you do know him, you'd realise that he was just another regular kid who wanted to have fun. Well, who was also borned a tad smarter than anyone else. I remember MunHow! He was one of my best friends! And amazingly, he could never get along well with my other best friends - Roszana and Arika. Guess what, they still can't get along with each other now. Sigh. I remember the band times with Zana and XiuYi and MengBoon and everyone else. I remember how a certain conductor used to throw scores' stands and stinky shoes at us when we couldn't seem to be able to play up to standard.

Sigh, how nostalgic.

It's only now did I realise that "forever" is forever, only in that particular moment in time. As time passes, people move on so fast that they can't look back. No, they won't look back. And all that has happened before becomes a blur. And what's real, is only the present. Now.

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