[>>behind-closed-doors::.*]

2006-05-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

I look at our picture and I thought I see a stranger looking back at me.

2006-05-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

I feel lousy.The general Singaporean male population just makes me feel that way. Most of the guys are shallow. They are so shallow that I believe I can dip my little toe and reach the depth of them. I have come to this conclusion after talking to my colleague, Mas, today. Sad, but nearly true. Sigh. Why is the whole world advocating that skinny is beautiful? Not that being skinny is not

2006-05-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

After months of fighting the flu virus and boasting to Pyisoe that I am was stronger than him (as he fell sick), I have finally crumbled under it's yoke of domination. In fact, most of us over at work, from the two outlets, are officially sick. Yani is the last woman standing. That's because she just came back from vacation on sunday hence she is spared.Sigh.It sucks to work when you have a runny

2006-04-26T08:21:00.000+08:00

I am sick of it.WHY CAN'T I COMPLETELY GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND!?I hate it. You make me hate myself.Go away and leave me alone. Please.

2006-04-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

"I love you Christina. I love you now, I love you forever. There's no goodbyes. Only love." - The Perfect Storm.Don't we just loveeeee movies that make us cry?!xJust started work today at at this swanky swim wear shop in town. It was so fun! :D I never enjoyed work so much before. Ha. Was a great experience. Have wonderful colleagues. Surrounded by my favourite type of clothes - bikinis and

2006-04-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

Finally finished the book "Just another Kid" by Torey Hayden. It's a wonderful book telling of a teacher's compassion, patience and love towards six mentally handicapped, abused, traumatised kids. And the best thing about this book is that it's REAL. All the events happened before. Woah. If you think teaching in a normal school is tough, think twice. Go read this book. It's worth it. (:

2006-04-17T10:19:00.000+08:00

I am a sentimental sucker.Was packing my room when I chanced upon this box filled with momentos from the past - My Pri.6 autograph book, Sec sch year book, SA's year book, countless notes, love letters, notebooks, those old school erasers blah blah blah.I looked back and wondered, where are all the "FRieNdS fOreVeR" and "sTaY iN tOucH"? Pardon for the way I typed, but that was how I used to write

2006-04-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I went to Ikea with Girlfriend today to get some much needed boxes and containers. Girlfriend apparently fell in love with Ikea's pencils - those freebies that Singaporeans "kop" when they go Ikea and pretend to take to write shopping list, and Ikea's children section. Now, who doesn't love the kids' section anyway? And as usual, Ikea manage to make me spend more than I should. Oh well,

2006-04-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

Life is good. (: At this point in time, things cannot be better. Thank God, for so so so many good things. Amen.

lessons

2006-03-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

I am currently listening to S.H.E. Ok, laugh at me if you want, but they do have very nice songs! I aint turning into some teeny booper yeah. Just that their songs remind me very much of my secondary school days and the past. All those heartbreaks. Gee. Sometimes I wonder how I ever lived through that pain. It's self torture. I guess sometimes we are just suckers for love.I searched my heart and

happyshalala

2006-03-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

I am a happy happy HAPPY girl!Heh.Except for the fact that I am very short on ca-chings. ;(Except for the fact that polytechnics start school much much MUCH earlier (at least a mth and a half) than the day I know if I would be accepted to any universaties. ;( So should I wait for the good news or should I enrol into a polytechnic first? I really have no idea. Moreover, my family ain't well to do

yay!newtemplate!

2006-03-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

If you know me well enough, you would realise anything NEW would make me a very happy girl. The novelty of it, the thrill, the new found beauty...Ok, except in family and him. Heh.So there you go, a new blog template, a new fresh spunky funky start. WHOOO! And if you notice, (like anyone would 'cause I think my blog is pretty dead at times) the tagboard is gone. Go kiss goodbye to it 'cause you

lifegoeson

2006-03-09T09:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah, so now, I am busily doing my applications. For every institution. Ha. You can't really afford to be picky when you don't have good grades. My grades are on THE EDGE. Either make it or fail. Somehow, I can't be bothered more now 'cause,1.) God is in control and I just have to try out for everything and He wld choose the best for me. (:2.) I am just glad I am out of the dumb system.Yeah, so

nottheendoftheworld

2006-02-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

Come, chant with me;AlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldAlevelsisnottheendoftheworldThank you very much.Besides the fact that dreaded results are to be out tomorrow, I have had a pretty good time this week.

imighthavebeenlikethatbefore

2006-02-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

BUT NEVER SO BAD.Marking is a very demoralising job. Students can never understand that. Never never never EVER.Sigh. Three more days, baby. Just three more.I love them. I enjoy myself with them. But I can't teach them because our age gap is too close. I can't seem to get to them to believe me that English is not that hard if you just read and pay more attention to grammar etc. They won't listen!

223rd

2006-02-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

Has been the best Valentine's day ever. ((: In many ways.Not been that great a week. But it's ending soon! I am counting down to the day. Heh. Of course, that means counting down to the much dreaded "results" day.Gee.Nicest thing someone said in the office today;(Don't think I was suppose to hear that but I did!)Me (in a joking manner): No, they didn't give me a pass to get into the office after

joyceisahappygirl(:

2006-02-12T14:34:00.000+08:00

I look onand heave a sigh of relief.It's gonna be a great week!

inloveandyet...

2006-02-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

"meimei its been quite sometime alreadi... i'm so sorri fer all this while not replying and stuff but its realli been cramp fer me... i hope u understand... ya? how hav u been? missing ur kor??? haha ya ive been thinking of u too... i remembered i told u b4 to give me time... to wait fer me... i knoe u've been waiting fer a long time alreadi... i knoe its veri painful fer u to go through all this

lifeisnotabedofroses

2006-02-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

It seems I have bitten off more than I can chew.What I am doing now is definitely not my cup of tea. And guess what, I stupidly put myself down for 3 good weeks. Oh goodness good indeed. I can't seem to get along very well with my subjects (not books, mind you). Sigh.Choices. Someone told me today, "I HAVE to what, not like I can run away right?" I just looked at him. "You always have a choice.

thekidinhim

2006-02-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

The ol' bugger is sleeping on my bed! So I have been exiled to my desk to type this entry. Wahaha.So dearie came over at noon and we had lunch at KFC where I ordered the fillet burger with weird looking unidentified gooey whitish stuff between the fillet's skin and the meat. Apparently, it was flour as dearie went to check with the staff for me. They replaced my fillet with a new one nonetheless.

the2nddayofgreatchinesenewyear

2006-01-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

"No, you don't know me AT ALL AT ALL AT ALL!"she cried, her eyes lighting up with fiery passion for her pride. Or was it her tears blinking through those deep dark windows of soul?"It was meant as a gift. A personal gift from me to her! It's supposed to be perfect! But it's flawed. You know I don't like it. You know I hate it! I don't even want to hear it played yesterday you saw my reaction

ithinkimscaryingyou

2006-01-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

But I just wanna show you how colourful and beautiful my world is. Not perfect, but perfect in its flaws.Yet.Are you afraid?

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

2006-01-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

There you go! A decent tagboard with all my rantings on! Now, don't say that I never upgrade my blog ah. A tagboard so you guys go make the best use of it! TALK! Talk rubbish, gibberish, nonsense. Talking cock.Im crazy.

caramelicecreamandsunshine

2006-01-25T19:01:00.000+08:00

I am craving for some caramel ice cream to make myself feel better. I find it highly irritating, to be hit by the blues for no rhyme nor reason. And I bet people around me feel that too. Probably, I am already tired of this present job. Haha. Fickle me. And it has been ages since I hit the beach! I absolutely miss the sunshine and sea breeze. Sigh. How come my holiday become like that?! -grumbles.

Plans

2006-01-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

I find my life pretty aimless at the moment. What happened to those activities that I had planned to do during the long break? Damn.Plan to continue what I am doing now till Dday (release of results). Then, who knows? Leaving it in the hands of God. Amen.

In my Middle

2006-01-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

I am desperately holding to a centre that holds - God, for the fact that He is in the middle of everything. That He is ultimately everything. That only Him has infinite viewing points of things and infinite points of view that makes Him everything, and everywhere.He is only one that I know I can hold on to, never failing. And I am learning slowly to leave things to Him. Humbling myself down and

Long long journey...together

2006-01-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

Tonight was orgasmic.Pyisoe and I had a great time celebrating our second year anniversary! No flowers, no presents, just plain wonderful company sufficed. Pyisoe actually made reservations at Prego, this fine dining restaurant at Raffles the Plaza in Raffles City that serves delicious Italian food. Two thumbs up for their pizzas! We ate this currypuff-like pizza with ham and bacon in it. It was

Feet smelling like peanuts?

2006-01-09T23:25:00.000+08:00

Dearie and I have taken another step in making our relationship even more intimate than before this very evening...It brought us closer, uniting two very unique individuals to a team who differentiates from others. An entity itself.Tonight, we bared our souls and took a leap into better understanding each other, by...Smelling each other's feet.:DYUCKS.I know I know, it's crazy, stupid, dirty,

(:

2006-01-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

It's 2006.I just wanna fly high this time.with you. (:

On the eve of Christmas...

2005-12-25T01:39:00.000+08:00

I had been a good girl accompanying mummy at home and to Jp! :D Heh.It was quite some Christmas eve - one that I didn't spent with friends, but with loved ones instead. (: Partly because I wasn't feeling well, hence didn't go out. However, I am very thankful that I stayed home. The change is goooooooood..Went over to dearie's place later in the evening and we went to church for candlelight

ChristmasChristmasChristmas IS COMING!

2005-12-23T10:52:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO! The long awaited Christmas is almost here. I can't wait, yet I can't help but to feel as I grow older, the spirit of Christmas is ebbing away. The "special" feeling of this season fades as years go by. Why? I haven't figure that out yet. Was quite resolute to find out the reason behind this but you know me, I can be quite a NATO (No Action, Talk Only) person when I want to. Haha.In

Santa, can you hear me?

2005-12-22T15:55:00.000+08:00

I have started work.AND I HATE IT. Oh me, oh my, I hate hate hate office work. It's so boring and so dreary and so DEAD! What makes matters worse is that I have fallen sick just one day after work. FANTASTIC. Haha. The only plus is that the manager is a really sweet and nice lady. I hate the job, but I hate to quit. Ahhh.. Any suggestions anyone? Zoo, perhaps?Not sure if I am still going

Church bells ringing... (Part One)

2005-12-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

I know I know, it has been long since the last time I blogged. But my sister's wedding really took lots of time away from me, hence the lack of entries. Ha. First, the Malaysian Banquet and then, the Singapore Wedding. :D Photos time! In the Grand ParkRoyal Hotel Deluxe Room Poseur DaddyDaddy and ISis and Mummy dearMummy and IMiss Gorgeous and IShe's so beautifulKiat and I before the dinnerAunt

The Right kind of Wrong

2005-11-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's kinda hard to imagine that my junior college life is over and I am finally moving on. I still haven't got over the A level feeling. Like for example when I am watching tv halfway, I would jump up suddenly thinking that I still have papers the next day, when in fact I don't! It's ironic, how I wished and hoped and prayed for A levels to be over and now, I can't seem to let it go. Haha. I miss

!?

2005-11-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

"Art subjects like Geography, Lit and Econs are silly!"Wtf?!What's wrong with these people?!Anyhow, I am relishing the fact that I am going to be done with my A levels pretty soon. THIS FRIDAY. xD Ironically, it's lit, an art subject, which unfortunately, I am not very good at as I am deficient in proper self-expression that is necessary in essays. I am relishing its end, not because I find it

Sometimes

2005-11-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, even the most confident person in the world feels small. Even the happiest person would start to doubt himself - Hey, why does he have that and I don't?But that's when You come in with Your grace and reassurance that we are all made special in Your eyes, that we are all different people yet the same, that the most beautiful people are those whose beauty shine from inside. Sometimes, I

I wonder what went wrong

2005-11-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

There are some things, which I cannot make me forgive myself for. I tried to make excuses to feel better, less guilty.But at the end of the day, the truth always comes back. I am not sure if you are avoiding me because of this matter.Hear me out for once. Answer my calls, my messages please?I know I don't deserve a chance to explain myself, but all I need is one! And I know, to you, I am probably

Days at home

2005-10-23T17:49:00.000+08:00

Due to preparation for A levels, I have been spending more time at home than usual. (Note: Not necessary studying, more like sleeping and mopping around.) I have realised some things which are particularly interesting...1) Mum loves talking on the phone. She can yak yak yak on the phone for hours! From the time I nap till I wake up, she'd be on the phone. Mummy dear is really super. She can

650th

2005-10-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

I am way past my 650th day of existence.And only 650 days ago did I discover the true joy of living - to love someone.And you jolly well know the someone is you.

Heaven in Hell's despair

2005-10-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

Well well, as exams draw near, what does our girl, Joyce, do?SHOP SHOP SHOP at ORCHARD ROAD! Yesterday's day out with Yan was fun. :D Gave her a nice gerberra to perk her day up despite the rain! Shopped around for the RIGHT shoes for my dress. And it was raining cats and dogs, dogs and cats all day. Hung out for awhile, drank her coffee (mine was tea). It was quite a funny day with embarrassing

Farewell. And then?

2005-10-15T18:42:00.000+08:00

So this is goodbye. We bade each other farewell, good luck, and kissed the wonderful times we have had into a part of our memories. Not that we won't ever see one another again, (hello, there're tons of consultations, not forgetting the gp camp) just that, it's like the last time most of our classmates gathered together to have lunch, and some fun. Gonna be the last time for a quite long time. At

2005-10-12T09:32:00.000+08:00

It has been 21 months...And it has been great! Despite all the complains, the quarrels and fights, there were still many many sweet, gentle, wonderful moments which we have shared.21 months...Heh! And I finally have a pair of pretty pretty pearl earrings! The courtesy of dearie of course. Hee. xD We went to jp again yesterday, ate at Mos and chill at our favourite ToysRus. We are big kids man..

2005-10-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

I feel fat, swollen and ugly.Now, don't tell me that's imaginary and I am making people who are worse than me feel worse. I know I am not fat fat. Just that... I just feel that way la. Haiya, it's all the mugging's fault. And maybe PMS too. Sigh, woes of womanhood.

2005-09-25T00:18:00.000+08:00

I love...Oh man! I simply love post-exam periods, especially this one. Although I dont exactly enjoy a long holiday or anything, it is one of the most fulfilling one I have had so far. Well, I get to meet my old friends - Beni and Pearlynn (Girlfriend), go out with my sis who is getting married, do some revision and studying, spend some time with dearie etc etc.Going to meet more old friends!

2005-09-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

Just a little bit longerSometimes, I wonder what a girl my age would be doing at the other end of the world...Would she be studying in a school in London?Would she be eating her lunch in Spain?Would she be working to support her family in Indonesia?Would she be sniffing glue, taking drugs, on a high in a small hidden alley of New York?Would she be feeding her kids in Afghanistan?Would she be

2005-09-14T11:28:00.000+08:00

Perhaps, perhaps, perhapsIt feels good when the whole world is having exams in school while I get to sit in front of the computer and type this entry in ease and comfort. Ok, I am just plain lazy lah. If I am to die of a sin, I bet that would be sloth.No, I am not here to complain how bad/good my papers were because 1) I still have papers tomorrow, friday and monday2) It's over, so HECKInstead,

2005-09-01T09:17:00.000+08:00

WillyWonkaWillyWonkaWillyWonka As you can guess, I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory yesterday! :D I love love love that show la. It's so deliciously evil - sinful. One can't help but get this feeling that everything is pre-arranged for the naughty kids and yes, they are getting what they deserve for being sickeningly obnoxious and know-it-all. Ha. Although the Willy Wonka in the show is

2005-08-30T19:49:00.000+08:00

Ok, now that I have eaten..I really do feel bad about what I've written! And he's indeed loving and kind, though he lacks the ka-ching. AND STOP THINKING THAT I EXPLOIT HIM, 'CAUSE I DID NOT! Oh well, Im a new-age girl. I'll learn to get what I want like I say I will. (See, this post is an example of a self-fulfilling prophecy from the post below.)But hey, I aint no saint, though I am from SAINT

2005-08-30T18:39:00.000+08:00

Diamonds are foreverYay! Lit P8 and GP - both papers are officially over! It's a totalof 6 hours worth of writing, writing, writing.Gosh, my wrist hurts man. Ok, I know there isnt much cause for me to be so happy because after the coming 2 weeks of rest and mugging, I am going to face an avalanche of papers of papers. I have calculated that I have an approximately of 21 hours of writing. Prelims

2005-08-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

Everybody, get on the floorOk, evil me is infront of the com again. Im suppose to be a really good girl, either resting in bed (because Im sick) or faithfully doing my Econs case study. Unfortunately, Im here. So there. :D Ha. Ended my 2-day working stint. For 200 bucks, it aint that bad. Get to know some really nice girls with really great legs. :D~ The store I was working at was like

2005-08-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

Pigs can flyMeaning: What is deemed as impossible, is actually possible. And that is exactly what I hope for - to do well for my A levels, which at this moment, seem like a totally impossible thing to accomplish. And I kid you not. There are like mountain-piles of notes to revise, look through, memorise, re-understand. Despite these, Im going to work. Yes, Joyce the impossibly lazy hopeless idle

2005-05-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

It's you I am thinking ofi think it's high time that i shld stay at home next weekend, be a good girl, do the chores and study. ok, not that i dont study, but i seriously dont think it's enough. there are too many things that are happening this year. mum was saying that i should retain and stay in jc if i cant make it to uni, instead of jumping to a poly. :/it's kinda depressing that even your

2005-05-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

Flying back to the Purple Moonok, new temp. i like. (:it's may now. i can feel the heat. literally of course. it's getting super hot now. perfect time to hit the beach, but i just cldnt get my big fat ass off this chair. sigh. also, the pressure is mounting. it's kinda scary. soon, june comes. then, block test 2. then prelims. then the Big As. omg. i feel like fainting already. it's horrid. and i

2005-05-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

OK, IM LEAVING THIS AS IT IS NOW. WILL BE BACK TO SETTLE THE TEMP SOON. TILL THEN. MUCH LOVED.

2005-04-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

drowning past regrets, in tea and cigarettesok, first, i lost my beloved pencil case. that was last year.then, i lost my wallet.lost my favourite yellow highlighter,my lit -Return to the Native- worksheet. and now, my entire econs notes. i think at the end of it all, i would lose myself. literally. --------------------------------------i have a family who cares for me.i have someone who loves

2005-04-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

The Beautiful OnesThou art an ass.---------------------------ok, so The Underpants finally ran its last show last sat night at 7.30. all ended well. the cast and crew waved goodbye to each other as we stepped out from the imaginary world of play and theatre into the reality. the feeling that struck me at 9 am on sunday morning was odd - one that was melancholic and well, a sense of emptiness

2005-04-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

weaving these memorieslast day of The Underpants. we are so gonna bring the house down with our madness.Theo Maske, Louise, Gertrude, Versati, and last but not least, Klinglehoff - i love you guys. -hearts.

2005-04-10T19:41:00.000+08:00

breaking out of this facadeok, im back. :D for awhile that is it.uploaded some photos. click at the yellow block at the right, scroll down to the bottom if you all wanna have a peek. haha. chrissy poo, your pics are up! was a shopping day ytd, trying to distract my mind away from thinking about my absymal results and the possibility that i might lose the chance of going for that cip overseas trip

2005-04-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

Seeing you in every step I takewoo. im 18. haha. the feeling only started to sink in after a day. it's a beginning of a new term and it's gonna be hectic and crazy. plus it's gonna be really short with the sports and performing arts season coming. i guess, this would be the last time im gonna witness this rush with my classmates and sch. a sense of melancholy i suppose. gee. and it's only first

2005-03-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

leaving YOU behinda list of unhappy things (being absolutely frank here):1) im still in sch2) i screw exams and tests like nobody's business3) i dont seem to be making much improvement4) i wanna do more shopping but have limited capital5) i have fat thighs and calves6) i feel fat7) i have a naggy mum8) i want a MP39) i want a digi-cam10) i want more clothes11) i want more time12) i dont wanna

2005-03-19T10:05:00.000+08:00

it's always hard to leave something you have loved behind. i caught a glimpse of you in my dreams. i watched you laugh. you were still in your silly hairdo, parting at the center with a silly grin. that's the old you, isnt it? the new you. with the new someone. with a new hairdo. new clothes. new style. new attitude. a new smile. something which i've never seen before.perhaps i am not meant to

2005-03-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

jazz and voodoointoxicating. breath-taking. ecstatic. i feel like im being drugged. soaring above the skies - a sense of freedom from the worries of life. it toys me, softens me, moulds me, changes me, transforms me. it powers me with the energy to run, yet able to lull me to sleep. to make me the woman i am. how incredibly sexy.i love jazz.

2005-03-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

it's the way you said itboring boring day. dearie went to work. poor ol` me was stuck at home. mug? not a single bit, sadly t say. was feeling so lethargic. sat in front of the com whole day and chatted with mark. ha. the old uncle who is almost 20. i have wasted another precious day. sinful, yes? ----------------------------------------i had a dream about you last night.i was on a bus with a

2005-02-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

the smile of winterok, here im back again. (: was sorting out my archives earlier in the afternoon. it kinda appalled me, the way i used to write. haha. it's full of "kekekekesx", "*cravings*", "wurteva" etc. whatever happened to my language then!?!?!?! no offence to whoever who is writing like that, but i really think it's childish to write like tt. hahaXsXs. opps. anyway, it's cool to know that

2005-02-25T20:31:00.000+08:00

The problem of consciousness; The formation of selfok. i know i havent been blogging. gah.actually i did. but stupid blogger gave up on the unfaithful me. so what's new? my life's a boring piece of shit. (and right now, as i am typing this, i am quite aware of the fact that i am doing a "discursive" piece of writing) too much lit. ha. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxblocktest one is in three weeks

2005-02-04T18:11:00.000+08:00

i can see the old ghost sneaking around from the corners of my eyes. can you see it? im beginning to lose the trust i have of you, of myself. no, you did nothing wrong. im jealous. ok? the old ghost - paranoid. creeping. im so dissatisfied. im so hard to please. i feel so confused. im beginning to pick my heels and.. run. im so gutless. im sorry. i wish i can tell you what's so

2005-02-03T14:41:00.000+08:00

I NEED A NEW INSPIRATION T MAKE ME BLOG. im sorry. i tried. but it aint working. my juices aint flowing. talking abt the drudgery of a student's life. someone save me from this endless abyss. i hate to be so dependent. but I AM. i dont wanna rely on anyone to save me yet i do. ironic, i agree. i wanna be like her; so strong, so resilent. but even for her, she needs a saviour, a hero..

kiss the rain

2004-12-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

kiss the rain FOUR MORE DAYS TO SCHOOL REOPENING. hit by reality. . . . . i realised i only have four miserable days left of ma holidays. gee. and i still have mountainous pile of hmwrk left undone. gah. not only that, my room is in a huge mess right now. mum's screaming at me. my world war three has recently extended to the living room. ahahaa. i know im a messy girl la. but hello. she's

2004-12-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

i wanna thank God for keeping us safe. i wanna thank God for watching over our little island. i wanna thank God for safe guarding us, our families, friends, loved ones and possesions. i wanna thank God for loving worthless sinners like us - why, that i would like to know when i see Him in heaven. i wanna thank God for the reminder that life is short and His coming is near. i wanna thank

all i want for christmas..

2004-12-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

all i want for christmas.. IS YOU. ahaha. ((: happy sweet 18th birthday dearielovelovedadahoneyeversosweet PYISOE darhling! <3<3<3 dear santa, im so sorry that this letter came a little to late. i just wanna thank you for giving me the best christmas presents ever, for the past 17 years of my life. a loving family who's always there for me, despite all the quarrels and arguments. a

2004-12-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

i dnoe why it's so hard t break up. nono. dont get me wrong. pyisoe and i are still going on fine and strong. for awhile, i was observing a relationship. how it blossomed, sparkled in it's finesse and beauty. the grandeur of a brand new wonderful beginning for two different people. it was breathtaking. touching. it was a feeling like you will never love another, that you will only love this one

rock me like no one ever..

2004-12-23T18:23:00.000+08:00

rock me like no one ever.. 2 days to christmas. and all that's left in my bank account is a miserable parsely amount that probably wont survive till after christmas. blearh. the secret is out of the bag. dearie knows what his REAL presents are. there goes my bedsheets. boo. actually. it's a mambo bag and a pair of o`reef slippers. ahahaha. (; and he bought a pair of slippers for me too!

angels from heaven

2004-12-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

angels from heaven BOOYAH! :D just got back frm a mugging session with adilah. not bad. but not v successful too. both of us were feeling kinda tired. blearh. been out quite abit these days. i actually miss being home, can you believe it? dearie's bday is coming! guess what i got for him? ((: ... BEDSHEETS! ahahaa! ;) im so evil can. ok la, i dnoe what t blog abt. so kill me pls. bah.

under the magical mistletoe

2004-12-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

under the magical mistletoe wooo.. before we all know it, christmas is once again around the corner. ahaha. while most are enjoying the festive season, a couple of poor souls are fretting, for christmas also means that school is reopening soon! :D blearh. while im quite looking forward to that, i still have about a ton of hmwrk left to do. BUT NO FEAR! adilah, as usual, is to the rescue. she

it's the 11th

2004-12-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

it's the 11th.. Happy 11th month deariesweetshoneysugarcoatedchocolatedipped baby! =D im so glad to have you by my side.. big Ms for my sweets! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 so now im back. frm outer space - msia. ahahha. it had been an eat-eat-eating-eat-somemore trip. im very certain tt im full of fats now. blearhs. am starting maths tuition with my ex tutor. rachel is joining me! so it's

missing the missing

2004-11-29T13:56:00.000+08:00

missing the missing just ended my 2-day working stint on saturday for the last of Nokia roadshows (hooray). it was a hellurve relief. it's hard t believe how f-rude some singaporeans can be. it's gross. the way they treated us. i mean. hello. you were happily enjoying your shopping trip while the miserable few of us were slogging under the blistering sun. at least, give us some credit for our

crash landing

2004-11-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

crash landing nothing much to talk about, nothing much to write. nothing compares to only you, who is my black armoured knight. ok, this is lame. i just wanna say.. i love you. ((: hugs and kisses for my sweets.. -xoxoxo- my heart crash landed - the first time i saw you.

steal my pain

2004-11-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

steal my pain alright. there they go, down the drains, all my dreams. i have been sent back to reality. and i guess, up till now, im left with no choice.. i hate myself. im like a pendulum, swinging left to right and back again. i went a whole round, making so many plans and decisions and i have just ended back at where i have started. just a waste of time.. i feel so.. so embarassed.

My Boo

2004-11-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

i LOVE this song. groooooooooovy! My Boo [Usher intro:] There's always that one person That will always have your heart You'll never see it coming Cause you're blinded from the start Know that you're that one for me It's clear for everyone to see Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo [Alicia intro:] I don't know bout cha'll But I know about us and uh This is the only way We know how to rock

2004-11-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

i have so much to say that i dont know where to start.. i just feel that the fragile pieces are falling apart.. ok, im a scardy-paranoid cat. things change.. you did? or i?

KapiTan aka King Tan

2004-11-15T16:09:00.000+08:00

KapiTan aka King Tan if you are wondering about the title, that's my father by the way. yes, THE KING. oh wells. i never figured out what's the meaning of KapiTan. but apparantly, most of his old friends like to call him that. i thought it sounds kinda funny. ha. The King bestowed me a royal mission to complete. to type out his delivery orders and invoices, that is. this is part of my

i love rock and roll.

2004-11-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

i love rock N roll. opps. daphne is out of singapore idol. hehhh. jonathan dont kill me pls. didnt know what to blog lately. am rather bored. just got over a reaLLY REALLY HUGE argument with mum. she was miffed with me for a night and a day. bah. went swimming this morn. the sun was FANTASTIC. i just cldnt resist it. haaa. however, my swimming is no way near that. i was moving so slowly

pumping adrenaline

2004-11-07T09:03:00.000+08:00

DISTINCTLY BOLD havent been updating much lately, because WORK has finally started. hehh. am working with raelo and jon for an events company, called THE events company. how ingenious. the work is just to promote nokia's new fashion collection - Distinctly Bold. and the new mobile phones are just groovy.. i sure would like to get my hands on one! :D the roadshow has been a smashing success so

so very special

2004-11-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

so very special listening to radiohead's Creep. i really like tt song.. there are times, when i feel, i truly dont belong here. in this time and space. i wanna fly. fly far far away.. the place is of great beauty. everything is white. glistering white. not a spot of darkness. not a taint of loneliness. not a sense of disturbance. there is no night. there is no day. time is at a standstill.

sweet reminiscence

2004-11-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

sweet reminiscence i stood there, with my feet rooted to the ground. "Yes?", i asked. The accessor looked up and stared straight into my eyes. a sense of electrocution. "What do you think hinders Artificial Intelligence to fully take over surgeries in the medical arena?" i was stunted, for a tenth of a millisecond (haha), before i launched into some incoherent mumblings and mutterings and

end of yesterday

2004-11-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

and as the chapter closes.. tmr shall be the end of project work. :D one cant imagine my delight towards this matter. i just recalled something. daniel named me joyce(d) and lemon, joyce(L). upon asking, he told me sheepishly that joyce(d) means joyce-dark. joyce(L) means joyce-light. -.- sounded as if im like some brand of chocolate. Joyce, the ultimate chocolate delight. You can have it

ride the waves with me

2004-10-31T23:20:00.000+08:00

a perfect ending to an imperfect story. im really happy for you. really.

ride the waves with me

2004-10-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

ride the waves with me. gah. im so disappointed today. sigh. i dnoe what's wrong with me these days.. perhaps i miss him too much? went city harvest with emi tday. it wasnt too bad. the sermon was inspiring. and i must admit. i was moved. in fact, i think everyone in the auditorium was moved. God's presence was really there. i could feel as if i was breathing Him. i learnt something very

u rock my socks. off.

2004-10-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

u rock my socks. off. ahhhh! i finally got this skin done! hahahas! okok. i admit tt i din do this myself. nevertheless, the original skin gave me so much trouble tt i decided to change a couple of stuff tt took me two days! blearhs. hahahs. what a sense of satisfaction. come to think of it, i think i get satisfied very easily. not tt it's a very good thing though. i tend to get too contented

2004-10-29T20:01:00.000+08:00

*testing*testing*

2004-10-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

____. it's that rush it has been so long since i feel tt sudden rush of adrenaline. some things came clear. and i have got a feeling of more or less of what i wanna do. going t go job hunting real soon. helping dad with his stuff too. hahas. busy schedules, hectic life, a fulfilling time. the sense of feeling important. ha. i cant wait. i dont know if i will be disappointed. oh to hell with

2004-10-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

______. you keep me breathing my first attempt at blogging after such a long time. ahahas. been lacking the motivation t do so. promos are finally over. and now everyone is once again consumed with pw. i guess there's just endless work t do here.. it's no longer a secret. tt im thinking of leaving. these tots never left me ever since the day i had conceived them. but right now.. it's hard to

2004-10-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

im too lazy t blog. haha. what's new? weeee.. 9th months! i love you dearie sweetie!

2004-10-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

okays. before i forget again. here it goes.. to sweetiepie-best-friend-pal-buddy-girlfriend of all times.. ----------CHRISTINE TAN----------- HapPy beLated 17th biRtHdAY !! to a friend tt has seen me from my best to my worstest worst, happy sweet 17.. ((: im sorry it had to fall during promos. and im SO SO sry tt i have forgotten.. (opps) so this is partly t

2004-10-04T18:55:00.000+08:00

i truly hate exams. and things are not looking up. totally screwed econs tday. ha. and this flu is not making things any better. gees. this is killing me.

2004-10-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

i have made up my mind. and nothing is gonna make me change it.. (i hope!) and with each step i walk, i will remember each smile, laughter, small jokes, one and every moment i will remember.. and i will miss everyone..

2004-09-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

im so filled with random thoughts.. colourful.. ever changing.. rearranging.. nothing is really ever constant.. even love.. love changes all the time.. it's the matter of you continue to adapt and love the person who had changed.. i think of the past.. the present.. the future.. i think of you.. of me.. of him.. of her.. of everyone that came and went in my life.. i think of how

2004-09-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

give me a reason to carry on.. and i will walk every step.. i am trying to find that every bit of motivation in me.. i am trying.. cant you see? is my best.. never enough to satisfy you?

2004-09-20T13:30:00.000+08:00

i love you. i have loved you the first time i saw you. when i`m gone, there`s no goodyes. only love. i felt like such a beeeg slacker tday. ;] hahas. went t sentosa (again) with dearie and his classmates. :D was fun.. unfortunately, some of them left early t mug fer their tests. bahhs. left tatming, lynnette, suet, doreen, dearie and me ard. swam some. stayed in tha water cus it was just so

2004-09-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

woke at 6.57am in the morn. just to realise tt i was running a high chance of being late fer my pw meeting in sch. bahh. without mum ard, being late isnt exactly the best thing. and sis was heading out at the same time. took a quick wash. fed rex. waited fer sis t offer me a lift in her cab t boon lay. :D which she kindly did of course! but in the end. i was still late.. my apologies, (doesnt tt